How Times Has Progressed

About 11 years ago when I came back from spending couple of years abroad earning my Bachelors, I came back only to find most of the fav brands are not sold here.

1) Nine West
2) Gap
3) Banana Republic
4) Jcrew

just to name a few.

11 years on, 3 out of the 4 brands have reached our shores...

Butttttt
Price is still horrendously high :P

Loving Yourself

We have heard this phrase many times.
I have also been told many that I need to love myself.... first before being able to love another person. Sometimes I wonder how true this is. I am not sure if I blog about this before. Earlier this year, I went for confession and I am not about to reveal about what I confessed. But to cut a long story short. After my talking part was done, it was the priest's time to talk. And the asked me, do you love yourself.. And I without hestitating , replied, NO. And he was ardently shocked... he said, you're very honest. Well Honesty is something I can vouch for.

Anyways, as months passed by I do believe do at least I love myself a slightest bit and honour God enough to abide by His laws. I recently came across some disheartning news. Someone I know went to get rid of a "certain" living thing in the w*mb. I think u know what i mean. firstly I am not here to judge. But to think to kill another living being is so cruel. Why does that innoccent being have to pay for mistakes not made by them. And to think that she did this more than once, its even more sad and disappointing.
I wonder sometimes, does she love herself enough or is she looking for love from the opposite sex so that she can love herself? Needing to belong to another to feel the self-worth of herself. I am not here to judge but I wanted to say that at least I love myself enough to be able to stand on my own feet everyday... and being able to live with me.. being able to go shopping alone, being able to eat lunch alone... dinner alone.... with not a bate of an eye.

I may not love myself totally but there is tiny bit of love in me :)

Its a progress.. no?

Harder than I thought

Since my last vow to complain less and to take action. I have to say, its been harder than i thought.

But the truth is, I have been trying real hard. and I can really feel the stress. I have started to complain less but still got lah abit.

When I feel down, i keep reminding myself why I have to work.

But I have to say, i get frustrated pretty quick... My proj is goin down the drain... Pretty bad state ler.

But then i keep telling myself, I did what i can. It aint' myself.

And to have work/life balance, on certain days I no longer bring back my lappy. Unless I am on call.

I don't want to login over the weekend if there isn't anything urgent. Hwatever it is, its up to me to balance my life coz if I drop dead, the co ain't gonna care.

A baby born on the same date.....

Finally trading my P for a H. After 10 years of owning P, I have finally taken a big step in making this decision.

Last Monday, I went to pay off the downpayment and the guy showed me my H. It has just arrived from the plant that day. On the windscreen, it showed the date when the goods was assembled at the plant and it was the same date as my b-day. A SIGN!!!!!! It really indeed was meant for me muahahahahhahaa.

Unable to reveal more information due to security and safety reasons.

This will be my motivator to go to work everyday as I now have taken on a financial debt....

Promise to Myself

Funny that today, I woke up early and decided to make a change.
I had a conversation with one of my "trusted" colleagues yesterday. I told him, I can't change who my SI TOW(ST) is so I just have to yan and do my work. Then he said yes, thats the way to go, no point complaining when things are beyond your hands.

then I woke up today and decided on this

1) Complain less
2) If not happy, find a solution
3) Since I have just accumulated a new debt, I have to keep that in mind and that shall be my motivator to go to work everyday. Be it how depressing or sickening to see the BIATCH.
4) Talk less to team mates aka less complain.
5) Keep more things to myself but have a plan aka take a short course or contact friends to see if there is opp on the non-tech area (hint: let me know if you know of any of those sort of opening).
6) Save more aka bring lunch to work, cut down on extravagant meals hehee
7) Lose weight aka 3 more KGS to go.
8) Start an exercise regime
9) SHutdown mind after working hours aka no work laptop over the weekend unless absolutely necessary.

This is my promise to myself....
Funny that when I visited ringgit's blog, i found the entry about turtle.
To me it seems to reaffirm my decision.